Hello friends, I haven't written in a while and this is not a story. This is a form of pleading for help, a form of telling my own story. I know that this website has a side website called "fictionpress" but I have more followers here and I want my words to be heard.

Okay enough with that. My story right now is a sad one. I haven't had a friend since 5th grade…and that grade was a long time ago. I started to self-harm in 6th grade and haven't stopped. Furthermore, this year I attempted suicide and I now have a huge scar on my neck.

This same year I found what I thought was the perfect partner. He was so sweet to me and he treated me like royalty. Then it all changed. He started to be abusive. He started to basically tear me down then blame me when I got fed up with it. I'm trapped my friends. I am trapped. I feel like nothing but a worthless cunt right now and there isn't much I can do to help it. If I leave him I'll be alone again and I'm scared of being alone.

So I stay and I endure the same shit. I'm sorry if you don't like swearing. When I'm with him I feel like I'm on top of the fucking world, I feel like nothing can get me. Then we separate because we live in separate towns, he starts to become an asshole. He always complains about his friends and how poorly they treat him but will willingly ditch me for them.

His friends don't like me for several reasons that I don't feel like getting into. He never defends me anymore. I'm not his queen. I'm his bitch. His low life scum sucking bitch. I always will be…

I'm sorry for this and yes I am fishing for attention. Because I need help. Please. Give me advice. Tell me I'm a stupid cunt for staying with him. Just let it rip.