Sorry for taking so long to update I have been flat out.

Christians POV

After Sophia's appointment with Flynn ended Flynn called me in to to office to talk to me quickly. It's really frustrating that he can't tell me anything that she said but if it helps her I suppose I will just have to bear it. I have noticed that she has need been herself recently and I can tell that she isn't sleeping well but if I ask her she just denies it. She was up at 5 this morning so I believe that that is proof that she so not sleeping well. At least today she admitted that she had a nightmare but I have a suspicion that this is a recurring problem. When I went into Flynn's office he told me that I should tell Sophia about my past and that it might help her. Obviously he was not on about my past with my subs and Elena and that but my past with my birth mother and the abuse I suffered as a child.

I get into the car with Sophia and she seems to be thinking really hard as she is quiet.

" how did it go sweet-pea." I ask.

" It was fine dad."

"Did you find that it helped you at all."

" Yes dad it actually was quite helpful." She says as she looks down at her feet.

"So all your worrying about going to Flynn was for nothing then. "

"Yes I suppose dad." She says and she looks like she wants to be left alone so for the rest of the drive home I limit the conversation to allow her to think.

When we get home I drive straight past the house down to the private beach that we have way down our property I have it all secured so that the kids can't go down there without an adult and also to stop intruders.

"Dad what are you doing why are we going down here." Sophia asks me.

"Because I want to talk to you Sophia."

"Okay dad." She says and looks kind of worried.

I park the car up and we walk down to a seating are that I had built that overlooks the sound Sophia loves it down here.

"Remember that time that you disappeared on us Sophia because you were angry at your mom and me because we still wouldn't allow you to go to sleepovers when you were ten." I ask my daughter.

"How could I forget dad."

" I still don't know how you managed to get down here and how you got down here undetected by security." I say.

"If I'm being honest dad I think I just got lucky."

Flashback Sophia age ten.

"Dad you are being unreasonable why can't I go to Emily's sleepover everyone else is going Isabel included. It's not fair dad." I say.

"Sophia how many times do we have to have this conversation you are not old enough to go to sleepovers and I do not feel comfortable with you going to them I have told you that you can go to the earlier part but you will be coming home at nine.." he says sternly.

"But that's not fair dad mom can you help me out here." I say using my puppy dog eyes on her.

"Sorry Sophia I agree with your dad and I don't feel comfortable staying the night either." My mom says.

"This is so unfair." I say well I Kind of shout it.

"Sophia that will be enough my decision is final and if you want to go to the earlier part I would recommend you calm down. I am not going to change my mind no matter how much you complain and whine about it so leave it be." He says.

"Ugh you are both so unreasonable." I say and then storm out. I hear my mom say to leave me be and let me calm down.

I am about to walk up to the stairs to my room but I see one of the back doors open which is unusual so I decide to take mr chance and walk out it I keep walking to help cool myself I walk straight past my play house and start walking towards the beach. By some other miracle the gate was also open so I walk out to the seating area we have by the beach and just sit there and think. My parents are being so unreasonable like honestly I'm the only one of my friends that are not allowed to attend sleepovers it sucks. Why do they have to be so overprotective. I sit there for ages and just look out to the sea I wish I had a phone right about now but dad won't let me get I've just yet because he thinks I am to young. I end up falling asleep.

"Sophia." I hear my name being called as I am waking up. I look up all confused and I see one of dads security his name is O Brian and he is new enough.

"Mr Grey I found her she is down on the seating area by the sea." He says into his phone.

"Yes that fine Mr Grey." He says back to whatever dad said to him.

"Miss Grey you have had everybody looking for you your parents have been going mad with worry you father in on his way down here now." He says to me.

"On a scale of one to ten how mad is my dad." I say getting worried now maybe this wasn't one of my best ideas.

"I cannot really comment on that Miss Grey but he was extremely worried." Oh great now I know I am in for it things never go well for me when my dad is worried because he always overreacts.

A couple of minutes later my dad comes storming down to where I am sitting.

"You can go O Brian thank you for finding her." Then O Brian walks away.

"You young lady have a lot of explaining to do. Do you know how worried your mother and I were. Sophia you cannot just disappear like that on us its not fair on us." He says in a stern tone.

"I'm sorry dad I wasn't thinking the last thing I wanted to do was worry you and mom. I just wanted to get some fresh air and clear my head. I saw the door was open and took my chance down here has a real calming effect dad." I say sincerely.

"Sophia I understand that you were upset about not being allowed to go to the sleepover but you also know that it is against the rules to leave the house without permission or informing anyone

where you are going. Your mother and I were sick with worry. Also you know you are not allowed down here without an adult how you even got down here I don't know the gate is supposed to be locked."

"I know dad and I'm really sorry. The gate was open."

"Also I want to know why no security noticed you leaving the house. Sophia you are in a lot of trouble young lady. You know how much we care about you and love you and for you to disappear on us is not on. Sophia you don't know the thoughts that run through my head when you go missing I automatically think you are kidnapped again and that you are somewhere hurting. Sophia I can never allow anything like that to happen to you again. That is why we have rules in place. Also you are far to young to be going to sleepovers."

"I know and I'm sorry daddy." I say as I go over and hug him. " I love you daddy." I say I don't know how the word daddy slipped out I stopped calling him that when I turned ten I felt it was to babyish of me.

"I know sweet-pea and I love you too but your ground for two days." He says.

"Really dad two days." I whine.

"Keep complaining and I'll make it four."

"Okay dad two days it is." I say sheepishly.

"Come in sweet-pea let's go up to the house your mother is sick with worry." Dad actually picks me up and I fight it for a bit as I feel to old for this but then again I do feel the safest when I am in my daddy's arms.

End of flashback

Christians POV

"You really scared me that day Sophia when I went up to your room and you were not there. It was not normal behaviour you either you never really did things like that."

"Ye I don't know why I did it If I'm being honest dad."

"I don't think you realise the power you have over us Sophia we love you so much and the thought of anything happening to you scares me so much. And you said you had a nightmare last night and I've noticed that you looked like that you haven't been sleeping properly. Sophia I hope you know that you can come to me about any of your problems or worry's you're mother and I will always be here for you no matter what. I will always be here to listen to you now I can't promise you that I will never get mad because that might not always be the case but I will still be there for you." I say to my daughter and she just looks at me with tears in her eyes.

"Dad I think I have to tell you that I have been having nightmares a lot more recently. And they have got a lot worse due to all the recent events"

"Do you want to tell me what they are about Sophia." I can see her looking anxious about it.

"Okay dad but you can't make a big deal out of them." I just nod my head. "Well you see I've been dreaming about Sarah and Jack and when they kidnapped me but then at the end when I'm returned to you you say that you don't want me either. I know it's not true but when I dream it's just like a repeat of everything that happened and I don't know how to get rid of them I have had them ever since I had my tonsils removed."

"Oh Sophia You know I could never do that. Those days you were missing and I couldn't do anything about it were the hardest days of my life. I don't know what I would do without you sweet-pea. You know I suffered from nightmares as-well for most of my childhood and do you know what stopped them."

"No what did dad."

"They stopped when you were a baby because I was content no matter how much money I made it was never fulfilling enough it wasn't until you were born that things changed you were the first person I allowed to touch and hug me. Your poor grandmother I never allowed her to comfort me and hug me and she struggled with that. It wasn't until you were born that I allowed her." I say to Sophia.

"Why wouldn't you allow her to comfort you dad."

"You see Sophia that is what I wanted to talk to you about. You know I was adopted yes."

"Yes dad I knew that."

"Well you see before I was adopted I didn't have the best childhood my mother was a drug addict and her boyfriend used to abuse me. Then one night she overdosed and I was trapped in the house with her for like two days until someone heard me crying. They took me into the hospital and that is where your grandmother saw me and decided to adopt me. She saved me but because of the abuse the I suffered I never allowed her to touch me. I suffered from those nightmares as I said right up until you were born. Of course I still have some nightmares now but those are more to do with you and your siblings and anything happening to you. But you know who helped me all through this Dr Flynn and if you let him he will help you to. And you know you can always come to me and your mother and we will help you through them to."

"Dad I can't believe that happened to you I always felt like you could never have nightmare and that because your you and so strong. But it is comforting to know that I'm not alone in it. I didn't think you would understand. And that story makes me love grandma so much more she really is amazing."

"Yes she is sweet-pea. And nightmares are a normal thing and with all the trauma you had with your mother and her brain washing is enough to give anyone nightmares. I just don't want you to be alone or feel alone when you do have them."

"Okay dad and dad can I just ask you those scars on your chest are they from your childhood."

"Yes they are Sophia. But I don't take any notice of them anymore. I'm over what happened to me but it took me ages to overcome it."

"Okay dad thanks for telling me this it might sound bad but it makes me feel a bit better knowing that you do actually understand. Also dad is the reason you are so obsessed with us eating right due to your childhood."

"You don't miss a thing Sophia you really are so smart and yes that is partly the reason but I also just want to ensure all of you kids have a balanced diet and ensure that you never go hungry. After what happened at Sarah's as-well I definitely want to ensure that you have enough. But you have always been a picky eater which has frustrated me to no end. I don't know how many times you ended up on the naughty chair when you were younger due to you refusing to eat but I do know that you were testing me and now I understand why you would test me so much."

"Yes dad I wanted to see if you would ever treat me like how Sarah did and you never did although to be honest I never really had to do anything for her to be angry at me."

"I know sweetheart but you know what that's part of being dad being there for you even if you are testing me and to ensure that I never did loose my temper with you. You may have got the odd swat here and there but it worked for you."

"Yes dad and I have to say it did make me feel safe and content when you never acted like Sarah you were strict but it was within reason with Sarah she was would lose it over anything. I just don't understand why she hated me so much she was supposed to love me the most out of everyone but she didn't."

"I know Sophia but that had nothing to do with you I just think she wasn't capable of love she was the most selfish person I have ever met."

"I suppose but at least I I had you dad and Mom and I suppose grandma, grandpa, Elliot and aunt Mia and now we have Phoebe and Teddy aswell."

"Yes Sophia we are very lucky to have each-other family are very important. But I think I'm the luckiest having all of ye especially you Sophia. I love you sweet pea."

"I love you to dad."

"Right I think we should head back up to the house." Sophia just nods her head but as I get up she comes and hugs me.

Sorry about taking so long to update I have been flat out. But please review and do ye want a Christmas special chapter.