From My Head to My Heart

Author: Serena J

Rating: R

Genre(s): Omegaverse

Pairing(s): Standard Hikari/Yami

Spoilers: none

Beta: Mishiko Shinsei

Disclaimer: Just the words, not the folks

Summary: What secret does Alpha executive Seto Kaiba hide even from the board of directors? What mystery does omega idol Jou keep out of the limelight? I'll tell you yours if you show me mine.


Omegaverse notes

The Omegaverse was conceived originally for the Supernatural fan base, but the BL world has co-oped it! Think human but werewolf-ish traits. The broad overview is that people have both a sex (male or female) and a gender (Alpha, Beta, or omega). All three genders are found in both sexes.

Male and Female don't change generally, however:

Alpha Females are futanari but with both sperm and eggs, and all Alphas have penile knots (look up canine knot if you don't know what that is). Monthly (or when pushed) Alphas have a rutting period when they are driven to impregnate someone, especially an omega. If an Alpha bites an omega, the omega may (90% likely) becomes physically bonded to that Alpha. Alpha are 20% of the population and considered 'the elite'.

Betas have no special traits. They are 'normal' humans. 70% of people are Beta.

Omegas Males can be impregnated. All omegas have a monthly heat cycle that drives them to become pregnant. Because the omega heat pheromones usually effect Alphas and can occasionally effect Betas, there is a great deal of prejudice against omegas (think women in the workplace, 1950s, 1960s) and some places openly segregate schools and residences as omega only. Only 10% of the world is omega.

Bonding is chemical, like a werewolf bite. True (Bonding) bites break the skin and leave a lifelong bruise.

For more details, and BL reading selections, google 'omegaverse'.


Chapter 1 - Omega

He was beautiful.

Her mother excelled at making clothes. Her father excelled at photographing them. Kawai Ayuka had seen beautiful models before.

Jounouchi was breathtaking.

"Ok. Take twenty!" her father yelled. "Let's do the gray suit next. Change out all these lights."

From across the room, Jounouchi caught her glance. He picked up a bottle of water and moved toward her.

"I'm looking forward to holding you," he said.

Ayuka felt her face flush. "I - oh - I - uh -"

He laughed, magically. "I'm sorry, but that expression is the cutest thing I have ever seen! Tell me you're not married."

"Married! I'm sixteen!"

"Really? Me, too!"

She scowled. "Now you're just teasing me."

"Nope. Omegas can get work permits at fourteen."

An omega. Her parents would never approve. "I see. Well, I should go."

"We have time before we have to change clothes. What's your name?"

"Why would I change clothes?"

"This dress is lovely on you, but it's not business wear is it?" He caught her look of confusion. "Aren't you the other model for this shoot?"

"No." She shook her head with a derisive laugh. "I'm -"

"You should be. You're gorgeous!" He grabbed her wrist and pulled her to the cameraman - her father. "Hey! What about her?"

Her father looked at them. "What about her?"

"She's perfect!"

Her father nodded. "She is."

"So?!"

"So?"

"So get rid of whatever hag the agency sent and use her!"

"Hmm. I'll have to check with her - ah!" He waved someone over. "Nouchi-chan thinks this young lady would be perfect for the business wear set."

The designer shrugged. "I think my daughter would be perfect for the full collection. She's the stubborn one."

"Aw, don't be stubborn!" Nouchi took both her hands. "It'll be fun. You'll like me; I'm handsome."

"You are conceited."

"So?"

"I don't want to."

"Yes you do."

"Oh, I do, do I? And just how do you know what I want?"

"Because I've been watching you all day. The only thing I don't know is your name."

"Kawai Ayuka," she smirked.

A beat passed.

"Kawai," he repeated, looking more than a bit chagrined. "Like the designer who just called you her daughter. I am a complete idiot."

"Yes."

He grinned. "She said yes - that sounds like she'll do it to me!"

"It did not! If I was going to do it, I would say 'I'll do the shoot' but -"

"Ah! No buts! Hey, time's getting short. We better get changed." He headed for the dressing room. "See you in a minute!"

"My, my, my," her mother sighed. "He is a charmer."

"The camera certainly loves him," her father agreed. "Just remember, young lady, omega flings are one thing, but you need to use protection."

"Father!"

"We are not ready to be grandparents yet."

"Mother!" Ayuka's face was burning. "He's not even that cute!"

"Oh. I see. Well, he is right about one thing - we do need to get you dressed quickly. Come along."

All of the poses were formal and office appropriate. Nouchi never once held her. But every time he moved close, her heartbeat tripled.

He wasn't the typical omega man. Not a girlish flirt or a maternal caretaker. Nouchi was manly. Virile. He was the sort of man even an Alpha woman wanted to be held by. Not that holding him would be a bad thing. A strong back, a firm ass, the most beautiful brown eyes anyone anywhere ever had….

Those eyes went wide.

Nouchi suddenly backed away from her. "I - uh - I need a break! Be back!" He nearly ran from the room.

Ayuka almost ran after him. Her heart was pounding, her body incredibly hot. Another minute and….

….And she would have been in full on rut. Nouchi must have gone into heat. She was as embarrassed as she was flattered.

She pushed an omega into heat. That only happened in romance movies.

After a few minutes, Nouchi did not return. "I'm going to go find him," Ayuka announced.

"Dear -" the designer started.

"Let her," the photographer countered. "They'll work it out."

He wasn't in the dressing room, but his bag was. Ayuka searched and found an emergency suppression injection. She took it with her and checked the other rooms.

Some enticing scent drew her to the end of the hall. To a locked door.

"Nouchi-chan?" She knocked lightly.

"Kinda not a good time, Kawai-san."

"Ayuka," she corrected against all wisdom.

"...uh…ok. Ren. Jounouchi Ren."

Such a common first name for such an uncommon man. "I found your suppressant, Ren."

"Uh-huh. You take one?"

"I'm fine."

"Uh-huh. You say that. But here's the thing - I'm not wearing my collar."

The words made her shiver. Made her mouth water.

"I really, really want to open this door, y'know? I really want to take you so hard."

"Take me or be taken?"

"...oh fuck," he moaned after a moment. "Both? I can't even think anymore."

"You need the suppressant."

"...yeah...I need it...I need it bad. And hard. And deep. And -"

"STOP!" She tried to pull herself together. "No one's in the hall but me, Ren. Open the door."

"...not a good idea."

"Why not?"

"Do you want kids?"

She looked at the door, thrown by the change of subject. "Eventually, I guess? I hadn't really thought about it. Why?"

"I want kids. I want a whole house full. I can't wait to get pregnant. Looking at you makes me think I wanna get pregnant today. I cannot look at you right now."

"You'll be beautiful." She sat on the floor, leaning against the door. "You'll be able to model the maternity line."

"I bet I'll never get hired again after this."

"We'll hire you. I'll see to that."

"Aannndd she's authoritative. Yeah, I open this door we are having so much sex."

"You think everyone in the world is attracted to you, don't you?"

"What, you aren't?"

"Not to the degree you think I am."

"You don't want to jump me."

She wanted desperately to jump him. "Not really, no."

"Seriously?"

"Trust me."

"...can I? Are you an Alpha I can trust, Ayuka?"

"Yes, Ren. I promise. You can trust me."


Chapter 1 - Alpha

"Papa! Papa hurry up!" Seto tugged his father's shirt. "We're gonna be late!"

The man laughed. "Ok, ok!" He fastened the last button on his younger son's jumper. "Done! Let's go put on our shoes."

"Mama first!" the first born demanded.

Papa laughed again. The 7-year-old was very particular about almost everything. Especially time.

"Yes. We say good morning to the family first."

The three gathered in front of the family altar. Mama's picture was in the center. Around it was Grandma and Grandpa, Uncle Yuki and Uncle Taka and Mochisan the dog. Papa lit an incense, and they all bowed their heads. A moment of remembrance for the family that waits in the next world.

Mama didn't want to go to the next world, Papa had told Seto two years ago. She wanted to stay with baby Mokuba and Seto and Papa. But someone on the other side needed her, so it was time for her to go. Don't be sad because she's gone. Live a happy life so you have lots of good things to tell her when you see her again.

Papa sighed. "Ok, boys. It's time for us to go."

"Wait." Seto looked intently as his mother's picture. "Mama, please tell Papa he has to get a new mama."

"What?" Papa stared at the boy. "Where -"

"Tuwa-chan got a new mama, and a new onii-chan. And Aki-sensei said that men like Papa need a woman to take care of them, or at least an omega like Shin-chan -"

"Shin-sensei," Papa corrected.

"- and Auntie Reiko from next door smells funny and doesn't give Papa the happy face like Tuwa-chan's new mama."

"Ah." Papa nodded. "I see." He knelt beside his sons. "Seto, Mokuba. Mama told me when she left that it was ok for me to find a new mama. But I haven't. You want to know why?"

"Why?"

"Because I don't want a mama that will just make me happy. I want someone who will be happy with us. All of us. And that's a very hard person to find."

"Why?"

"Why? Huh. Why." He stood up. "Come on. Let's see if I can explain on the way, ok?"

They walked to the daycare and dropped off little Mokuba. Then, Papa and Seto walked to the primary school. The whole time, Papa tried to find a way to make relationships simple.

Seto frowned. "That's not right!" he huffed as they arrived at his school. "You should have a faded bear too!"

Papa laughed. "Fated Pair. But, I think I'd rather have a 'faded bear'. Give Papa a hug, 'faded bear'." They held each other for a moment.

"Papa, when I grow up, I'm gonna tell everybody they have to find a faded bear."

"You're going to tell everybody? You're going to run the world?"

"Yes."

Papa laughed and kissed his cheek. "Ok! When you run the world, everybody will be very happy!"

In class, Seto was still thinking about it.

"You look very serious today, Seto-kun." Shin-sensei sat beside him. "Want to tell me what's up?"

"Do you have a faded bear?"

"A - oh." He smiled and sighed wistfully. "No. But somewhere, out there, the perfect Alpha waits for me. Why? Do you like someone?"

Seto shook his head. "Why does it have to be an Alpha?"

"I don't know." The teacher shrugged. "Just the way it works. Boys like girls, Alphas like omegas."

"We should all be Betas," Seto insisted.

"Why?"

"So we can all like anybody."

"You can like anybody." Shin-sensei smiled gently. "But the fairy tales about Fated Pairs are all about people who are so different that they can't help but fall in love. You want to know a secret?" He leaned closer. "Really, no matter how far apart you seem, the person you fall in love with will be just like you. And it won't matter a bit if it's a boy or a girl, or an Alpha, Beta, or omega."

The teacher ruffled Seto's hair. "But that's a lot to think about. You're supposed to be writing what kind of job you want when you grow up."

"I'm going to run the world," Seto said matter-of-factly. He handed over his neatly written assignment.

"The whole world?"

"Yes."

"Well, that's a big job! How are you going to do that?"

Seto frowned as he considered that.

"Shin-sensei," Aki-sensei called him from the doorway. The Headmaster was with her.

Seto watched the teachers' whispered conversation, and recognized the distressed expressions. Something bad had happened. Something bad they didn't want the children to know.

The teachers all looked at him.

"Seto-kun," Aki-sensei looked like she was going to cry even though she was smiling. "Reiko-san came to pick you up early today." Behind her, Shin-sensei covered his face with both hands. "Come on, dear, let's go get your things."