A/N: yada yada new fic again I'm sorry but I got the idea from my friend

2 days after graduation

"well that had to be the worst doctors appointment of my life" says Tori

"just because you have one year left according to science doesn't mean it has to be bad" says Trina

"oh ya, wanna bet, I have bone cancer Trina, I'm gonna die alone, Jade is the only one who could make it better and she hates my guts" says Tori

"does she actually hate you or is that just an opinion you formed, didn't she date cat for a smidge after her and beck broke up over his families distrust of her" says Trina

"ya but Cat moved to San Francisco to be with her uncles and away from her brother and Jade didn't want a long distance relationship, also ya it's a belief I hold, Jade hasn't spoken to me since Cat left, she blames me for it" says Tori

"that can't be true, I swear I saw Cat yesterday" says Trina

"she's come down twice since she moved there last year, both times to have a sleepover with me, she's the only one that knows I have feelings for Jade, well besides you" says Tori

"why doesn't she want to see Jade" asks Trina

"see that's the thing she's here again tonight for a sleepover, I never asked how it ended with Jade, never saw a point in pushing the topic" says Tori as Cat strolls in

"Jade has a secret crush" blurts Cat

"on who exactly" asks Tori feeling defeated

"she won't let me say, she stopped me at the mall yesterday, my uncles are on a business trip so I'm here for a week, I hope you know by the way that Jade smokes the green stuff" says Cat

"so it's either me or someone completely different, we both know you probably told her I like her, you are terrible at keeping secrets Catarina" says Tori

"I did let slip that some cute girl liked her and the first thing she asked was if it was you, I neither confirmed or denied that question, she's been going crazy for about a week trying to figure out who it is" says Cat

"Cat, Tori has cancer, the doctor said if she doesn't find a marrow donor she only has a year to live" says Trina

"oh so should I tell Jade then, a year with Jadey would be better than nothing right" asks Cat as Tori sighs

"if you want Cat, I'm gonna go take a nap" says Tori as she heads to bed

"ok you can't tell Tori or Jade I said this but Jade has had a crush on Tori since the day they met, Tori trying to remove the coffee from Beck's shirt only made her jealous of beck, that's why they fought so much" says Cat nervously

"wait so let me get this straight Tori was the wedge that severed the best relationship beck said he's ever had" asks Trina

"correct" says Cat

"ok you using grown up words is cuter than the moon, so when do we tell them you're dating me" says Trina

"God never please, I like the secret, I've liked the year in silence, I just wish I could have stayed here and spent more time with you" says Cat

"you can move in ya know, Tori wouldn't mind" pleads Trina

"Hehe that's the idea, my uncles are taking my brother out to san fran to give my parents a break, that institution he was taken to didn't do jack for him, I must say my uncles do a lot better of a job getting through to Michael and I than our parents do so who knows my brother might actually get better" says Cat

The next morning

"why didn't you cuddle me like you normally do Cat" asks Tori as Cat blushes

"she was otherwise occupied, oh and also she's moving in" says Trina

"no way you and Cat, you always made fun of her though" says Tori

"ya well Sinjin and Robbie kinda got obsessed with wooing me over to the nerdy side and she protected me, she spent that night with me and without thinking I nuzzled her and her eyes lit up and I was sold, what I never expected was for her to immediately kiss me and that I'd like it, I'd never considered that I'm gay before she kissed me" says Trina

"and you two do stuff then" asks Tori intrigued

"kinda sorta ya, I mean we haven't actually had that much time together since she moved to Sanfran but she's back now and plans to stay sooo" says Trina

"can you forgive me for using sleepovers to be around Trina Tori" pleads Cat

"yes of course I can, I may not be happy that I was used but it was clearly for love so I'll get over it, I don't really have any time to be angry, especially with only a year left to live, also Jade texted me saying she's gonna come over in a week to talk about things, she hasn't talked to me in a year so I'm kinda scared" says Tori

"don't be trust me, she's taking a week to collect her thoughts, I told her about your cancer, she did research on it and she thinks she might be a compatible match, also you are her secret crush" says Cat

"I won't take marrow from her to save my life, my blood type is rare, I save lives, if we get together I don't want our defining moment together to be a transplant, it would make me feel guilty loving her" says Tori

"besides Robbie already took a test to see if his marrow was compatible and it's a pretty close match" says Trina

"when was this" asks Tori

"last night, he said it wasn't normal for you to not answer anyone's texts so he went to mom and dad and they told him, he said he owes you for the blood thing when he was in the hospital" says Trina

"ya well surgeries are backlogged from flu season so my appointment isn't for ten months anyway" says Tori

"Tori the doctor said you could start bleeding easily any day now, also that wasn't a flu season it was a bio attack aimed at severely limiting California's dwindling supply of surgeons" says Trina

"I'm nearing stage three ya I know, he said stage 3 is always the slowest stage with this cancer, I've never been so scared in my life, what's worse is the doctor said my operation might happen too late anyway, by the time I have the operation I could need new hearts and kidneys" says Tori

"can't they bump you up the list" asks Cat

"I have no popularity or social standing, they bump me up the list they could get fired" says Tori as Cat gets a text from Jade

"Jade's made up her mind, she's coming tomorrow, she says she refuses to let you go through this alone" says Cat

"though not as my girlfriend I assume" asks Tori

"I honestly only know that she's repaying you trying to be a friend since day one, I have no idea if she's going to ask you out or not, though I do believe from the way she worded it that is her end goal" says Cat

"how did she word it exactly" asks Tori

"she said you are the family she never had, also known as the first person to love her willingly" says Cat

"what about you and Beck" asks Tori

"beck wasn't technically ever dating her per say, more like her parents wanted her to be normal, they asked her to pick a guy and she settled on Beck" says Cat

"what about you" asks Tori

"not to be blunt but Jade is kinda obsessed with sex, more specifically with us girls, trust me she said beck offered and she toyed with that thing but never gave him her virginity, I had that honor, though Trina got mine, I never understood why everyone was so pushy for me to date 'normal' people, as I saw it my only options were Trina, Sinjin…ew….. and Robbie, I never have and never will be normal, why date someone who hates me being me, Daniel was my bucket throw into the 'normal' ring and I got burned, I was never truly mad at you about that either, I was pissed at him, then under the cover of fear to date again I dated both Jade and Trina" says Cat

"honestly I could go for a good tumble, IF I die eleven months from now I want to have died happy not scared" says Tori

"Jade is unlikely to deny you that happiness Tor, she loves you too much to hurt you like that" says Cat as she hugs Trina

"how much does she love me" asks Tori

"more than she has ever been willing to admit before, I was a stepping stone and I'm proud of it for now Jade can be truly loved and appreciated, you will live a long life, you have to believe that" says Cat