Chapter 1: A not so glorius arrival

I have never been really religious, what's more, could you say that since I turned 13 I stopped believing in the existence of the superior being called God, or well, it would be more accurate to say that I didn't believe in the concept that was commonly attributed to the term God, I mean, if there really was a superior being that would have created the universe, I didn't see why he would only focus on humanity, in my opinion that would be really sad, if there really was one then in my opinion we should not care In the least, thats why I really thought that when I died it would be very similar to going to sleep, like when you've been awake for a long time and before you even know it you're not.

Oh boy, I had really been wrong, and I had done it in a big way, I'm not going to magnify myself saying that I met some higher entity that claims to be God, if I had done it, the amount of questions that I would have done surely wouldn't be possible, but no, it was actually like waking up from a dream, if I'm honest at the beginning I even thought I was in one.

The light hurt my eyes, my body felt weak and it was extremely difficult for me to control it, my mouth felt strange, and my tongue felt numb, all the attempts I made to move were ineffective, the annoyance began to flood me when a huge shadow appeared in front of me blocking the sunlight, my eyes felt more comfortable, but even so I was unable to see clearly the face of the giant, when she bent down I felt intimidated and for some reason my feelings overflowed and I felt the moisture form in my eyes, without doing anything to stop my own body, the whimper ran down my throat and then out of my mouth and flood my ears.

- #% #% *&$- The figure spoke but my ears seemed to be covered because her voice sounded strange, so I couldn't understand anything she said.

It was then that my head touched something soft and my ears picked up two new sounds, one was like a soft drum, bom bom, bom bom, for some unknown reason that sound calmed me, little by little my uncontrolled feelings began to calm down until my tears stopped and my crying disappeared, both frightened by the relaxing sound, it was then that i noticed that once again the dream caught me with its long and relaxing claws and soon afterwards everything was black once again.

One would expect that when I got up everything would be clarified, but no, it wasn't in the least, when I opened my eyes I was greeted by a blue ceiling, well, at least I think it was the ceiling, since my view, although it was more clear, it was still a bit blurred, there were a few movements were all I could do before once again a large figure appeared in front of me, this time however I did not feel like I was going to cry, for some reason the figure no longer gave me a frightening sensation and when she carried me in her arms it was surprisingly comfortable, I felt how we moved for a few seconds and when we stopped the figure seemed to lean on something, a comfortable silence reigned the place for several seconds, it was then that I felt the need to something, at first I didn't really know what it was, I felt my mouth move involuntarily as if asking for something, it was really confusing, at least until the moment I felt my stomach growl a little, I was hungry.

At that same moment the figure brought something close to my face, and ignoring my good judgment my mouth accepted the object and I began to suck as if my life depended on it, I would never admit it out loud but whatever I drank was nothing less than divine, it had a familiar feeling but my sense of taste was a bit distorted so I couldn't identify it.

The feeding lasted a few minutes and then I felt myself being lifted up and lightly hitting my back, a few seconds later a burp came out of my mouth and I felt like sleep flooded me again.

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I'm not really sure how much time passed, although my best guess was that it was only the next day, my eyesight hadn't improved much but I was able to keep my eyes open for a bit longer and the clarity was slightly better than that of the day before, in a side note I NOTICED THAT I WAS A FUCKING BABY! What do you say? That should I have noticed before? That the clues were obvious? Ha, the day that you die, get reborn and you realize 5 minutes after that you are a baby, you can come and tell me so that I can clap you with my tiny hands, I mean yes, the clues may have been clear in retrospect but hey, the first thing that you have to think in this kind of situation must be that you have some strange variant of sleep paralysis, not that you are in the body of an infant, and if it is the latter, I recommend seeking professional help because there must definitely be something wrong with your head.

Anyway, following the events, I had woken up not long ago and my stomach was already asking for food, this time it seems that I had more control of my body, since I could resist the urge to cry, however I was still not able to do that my limbs followed my orders correctly, the most I achieved was a clumsy stretching of my arms, with each passing moment my stomach seemed more impatient, it was at that moment that I saw how the same huge figure from yesterday approached me again and she lifted me up to feed me, although I couldn't see clearly in any way I could recognize that this person and yesterday's were the same, when what I think was a bottle full of milk ran out, she withdrew the bottle from my mouth, this time the dream seemed to take a little longer to arrive, so I just kept looking at her and trying to get my eyes to clear up a bit and I could see her more clearly, was she my mother? Other than the fact that she was a woman, if the softness I felt when she laid me down on her chest was a sign, I really didn't know anything else.

After almost a minute I gave up on my attempts to observe her and decided that it would be better to just go back to sleep, but when I was about to go to the dream world something prevented me, I felt how the moisture fell on my face, they were just 2 drops that touched my skin but it was enough to clarify what was happening, this person…. was crying, I didn't know well why but that…. I didn't like that, for some reason it made me feel sad, fighting the dream that was trying to claim me, I slowly raised my hand, the woman did not seem to notice until my fingers brushed her chin, she tilted her head looking at me without doing anything for some seconds, soon after she wiped her face with her own hand, and then she got me up until I was in front of her with my hand still touching her, I couldn't speak, and even if I did, from what I heard from she we spoke different languages, so she couldn't understand me, so I did the only thing I could right now, I smiled at her, or at least I tried, after all the control I had over my body was not really good.

Once again, she only looked at me for a few seconds, and then hugged me, it is difficult to describe what I felt at that moment but I swear, I could feel the woman's emotions, she was relieved, not long after, I was asleep once again.

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When I woke up this morning I did not think this would happen, I had neglected all my activities for 2 months, I knew that I shouldn't have done it, but I didn't care, my life had become monotonous, since the day I lost my son the world had lost colors for me, a car accident, he was returning from a party with his friends when a truck driver fell asleep and rammed his car.

He survived the crash but couldn't resist the internal wounds it caused him, he died a day later when his lungs collapsed, I stopped going to work and locked myself in my aparment for several weeks, I don't know how long it was, sometimes I could hear beating in my door and voices calling me behind it but I didn't pay attention to them.

It wasn't until someone kicked my door and walked to my room to yank the door open, I looked up slightly to see her, she was my best friend since high school, Rin Hatanari.

-Hana! You can not continue with this-

I simply looked at her without saying anything, after realizing that I did not intend to answer her, she seemed to get angry, she approached with heavy steps and took me by the arm trying to drag me out of the room.

-It is enough, you are going to take a bath while I clean all this garbage dump and…-

-SHUT UP!- I interrupted her -DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M GOING THROUGH?! HOW I FEEL?! YOU ARE NOT ABLE TO DO IT, NOBODY CAN, IT WAS MY FAULT THAT KILLED TAICHI, AS A MOTHER I SHOULD HAVE WORRIED MORE ABOUT HIM, IT WAS ME WHO SHOULD HAVE BEEN GOING TO PICK HIM UP, I...- I felt like my voice broke at the end and as the tears that I thought my body had stopped producing flowed once more time down my cheeks, it was then that Rin hugged me.

-I know- she said -I know I can't know how you feel, I know that nothing I say can fix what happened, so don't do it for me, don't even do it for yourself, do it for the other children in the orphanage, do you know how much they adore you, the orphanage will close next month, will you let them go like this? Without even saying goodbye? But above all, do it for Taichi, do you think he would want to see his mother like this? If you want to honor his memory, don't let this ruin your life and keep moving forward, just as I am sure he would have wanted you to do it- she said, as tears welled up on her face as well.

I don't remember much more than what happened later, we both cried, but I promised that no matter what happened or how long it took, I would continue, not for me but for my son, because I wasn't going to allow that he, no matter where he was, to see his mother in this state again.

The days passed and finally 5 days later I was able to go back to work, I wanted to deny it, after all I promised, but even so the world looked dull, I smiled the best I could every time I saw the children in the orphanage, I wouldn't leave that the last days we saw each other was sad, little by little the number of children was decreasing, each one going to different other places where they could take care of them, there were only little more than 10 days for the orphanage to close its doors completely, but there were no children left, the only thing we had left was to finish the paperwork and wait for the scheduled date for the buyer to pay for the place.

It was when he arrived, when I opened the door there he was, lying in a basket and covered by a blanket, I approached him and that seemed to wake him up and he began to cry, I picked him up immediately and lay him on my chest, while I rocking him from side to side the baby fell asleep once more, I could see a little lock of red hair on his head.

I quickly took him inside and put him on one of the cribs that we had near my office, and I went to talk to Rin, this was a matter that we had to solve quickly.

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The afternoon of that day I heard the baby making noises and I peeked into the room, he seemed to be hungry so I quickly prepared some of the formula that we had left, managed to burp him and rocked him until he fell asleep, slowly put him back to bed in his crib and when I saw his sleeping face I couldn't help feeling sorry for him, abandoned by his parents, without leaving even a note, this baby would go to another home where he would grow up waiting to be adopted.

Letting him sleep in peace I walked to my office and took out some of the paperwork that was left, after talking to Rin I offered to take the baby to my aparment this night, but that would have to wait a little longer.

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That night in my apartment I heard how the child got up once again, this time it didn't take me that long, luckily I had the formula ready and warm in a bottle, I carried the baby and laid him in my arms while he drank the milk, when he finished I rocked him waiting for him to fall asleep again, however he seemed not to be very sleepy, he stared at me for a few seconds, that look reminded me of Taichi, the color of the eyes was dark violet and not hazelnut, the hair was red and not brown, but even so in the eyes of this baby I could see my son and while I closed them I could not prevent my eyes from getting wet, slowly the tears began to fall once more while I tightened my eyelids as much as I could.

It was then that I felt it, a small hand touched my chin, looking down I noticed that the baby had an expression between confused and sad, what was I doing? Crying in front of a baby, falling apart so soon even when I promised I would do my best to keep going.

I wiped away my tears and lifted the little boy in front of my face, his little fingers refused to let go of my face, and then he smiled at me, it was like an explosion, and suddenly the world stopped being gray, this little boy had returned the color to my world, maybe it was God or destiny, but I didn't care, something was giving me another chance, one to try to be happy once again, I couldn't help it, the tears came out one more time, but this time they weren't of sadness or helplessness, were tears of hope, I hugged the baby, I don't know how long it was, but when I finally let him go he was already asleep.

Now that I remember, Rin suggested that I think of a name for the baby, and now I had it, this little boy cared for me, even if he didn't know, his heart was really big and noble, that's why the name he would carry from now on…. It would be Shinta.


Well, this was the Little surprise that I had prepared, for months I had in mind a story for Highschool of the Dead and finally I've decided to do it. As you can see the protagonist is an OC, I just want to warn you that there will be some chapters before the Z day arrives I want to give Shinta a "childhood and adolescence" relatively normal.

I think that its really obvious in who is based the looks of the protagonist, I mean even the name is the same, I swear that i'm not a hardcore fan of red hair characters it's only that Reinhard and this Hitokiri are two of my favorite characters.

Anyway, I hope that this chapter is to your liking and I'll try to bring the next as fast as posible, so it would be great if you left me a review, bye.

Credit to my translator: Chris Mclaine.