Chapter 1: It's Hard

(Olivia's POV)

It was 2:30 am I had just got home; from a long day at work. I paid Lucy extra for overtime with Noah.

It had been one of my worst days at the 1-6. Carisi is losing his head with trying to be a counselor. A six year old child was brutally beaten to death by her father. And her mother was raped and beaten and survived. This guy was absolutely disgusting. When we brought him in he explained everything he did in vivid details. Reminding me of Lewis. But I easily shook that feeling.

It was a quiet house. Noah had been sleep for quite some time. I decided to have a glass of wine before I went to bed. Finally having time down time, I checked my phone and I had 3 messages from an unknown number. 'Hey Liv, haven't seen you in a while. Just checkin' in!' 'Whenever you get the chance give me a call' 'Have a goodnight'. Once I Opened it up I immediately knew who it was... It was Edgar Goodwin.

I had met home at one of Chief Garland's dinner a while back in November for Thanksgiving. He was a very tall, good-looking man. And his hair, stunning. We had light conversation here and there but nothing serious was ever brought up just kind of like the text from earlier.

I was just about to call when I realized it was almost 3:00 in the morning. I decided to wait until tomorrow to call or respond. I went and I checked on Noah again and went to sleep, knowing I had to be in court in the morning for my pending case.

Next Morning

(Narrator POV)

Olivia has woken up before her 6:45 alarm and decided to try and fall back asleep while she could. But truth be told, there was no way Olivia could sleep. She barely slept through that night. Her mind was on Edgar. She had been up all night thinking about how to respond to a simple text. If only he knew what he does to Olivia.

Olivia decides to go start the coffee and wake up Noah. "Noah, honey, it's time to get up for school." Noah responded in his usual tired mumble.

Olivia hopped in the shower for a quick wash, when she all of a sudden heard throwing up and crying. She quickly put some clothes on and went to check on her son.

Noah has been in his bathroom on the floor in tears. "Sweetie what's the matter?"

"I don't feel well. My stomach is upset and I'm really-" And just before Noah could finish his sentence he threw up once again, but on Olivia.

"I'm sorry, Mommy! I didn't mean to. It just came out. I'm sorry, Mommy please don't be mad?" With his sad sick eyes. "Oh, Noah, Mommy isn't mad at you. It was an accident. I have more pants, it's fine honey. Go get back in bed try to rest."

She looked at her watch. It was almost 7:00 and she had a meeting with the Chief 8. And Lucy had sent a Liv a text she would be late and could be there until about 9:30. "This morning couldn't get any worse." Olivia thought. Or could it?

Then there was a knock at the door...