Sooo,... I write stories when I'm depressed, bored or stressed. Apparently, im all three right now. Soooo,... Yeah, quick intro, Silas full name, Silas Peter J. Knight, 6'5 ft, and his face is my profile right now.

P.s.Mas and menos not here cos they in vacation.


Cyborg served the ball, hitting it directly at Bumblebee, who received it with ease. The ball headed towards Speedy setting the ball towards Aqualad, who spiked it perfectly. The ball swiftly hit the ground, Beast Boy a second too late to catch up.

"Dang it!" he yelled.

Robin chuckled, then looked back at Raven, who was meditating. Then at Starfire, who waven enthusiastically at him, making him smile.

Since the brotherhood was stopped, the cities were pretty quiet. So why not play short game of volleyball with the titans east. Raven and Starfire sat quietly, watching the match. Though Raven didn't pay much attention, she was deep in thought.

"You guys sure you don't wanna play?" Aqualad asked, placing his hand on his hip as he looked at the girls. Raven shook her head silently, blushing slightly, although Starfire looked eager.

"Star, why don't you play with us?" Bumblebee offered, she added while breathing heavily. "Glorious!" Starfire jumped with excitement as she floated to the court.

"Isn't that a little unfair?"

Silence.

"I mean... 3 against 4?"

Everyone stopped what they were doing. The ball fell on Aqualad's head, failing to hit it because of the sudden shock. Even Raven opened her eyes in curiosity.

'I knew it...' she thought. Something or someone had been watching them since the game began.

As she predicted, a tall man stepped out of his hiding. A lopsided grin formed in his face as the titans east looked at him in confusion. The titans, knowing who it was, stood up straight and starred playfully at the man standing a few feet away from the court.

His smug face clearly showing as his hair blew in the wind.

'How does his hair get to do that...' a sudden thought appeared in Speedy's mind.

"Peter..." Beast Boy snorted.

His grin turned upside down into a small frown. "Please don't..."

"Why not?" Cyborg snickered. Instead, Silas just walked towards the court in front of the net. Extending a hand, "Silas, nice to meet ya" he said while shaking Aqualad's hand, followed by Speedy, then Bumblebee.

"Mind if I join?" he asked. The titans, including Raven, smirk, "Sure," Robin said, "Cyborg and I need a break."

'You don't know what your up against,' Raven thought to herself as she now started at the game with slight excitement. The titans knew well enough what Silas can do in the court since his last visit.

Aqualad tossed the ball in the air, hitting it directly at the new guy thinking,' Let's see what he's got.'

Robin smiled slightly, "Big mistake," he muttered.

The ball swiftly launching itself into the other teams court. The ball was about to land, until Silas caught it last second diving after the ball, sending it back at Aqualad.

He didn't react in shock. 'He's quick'

The ball hit the court, the sound echoing loudly. "Well well well... Nice to meet you too," Speedy finally said with a small grin. 'You haven't seen everything,' Beast Boy thought to himself as he smiled.

The titans east looked at them confused. It was Starfire turn to serve. She tossed the ball high, then jumping up, spiking the ball between Aqualad and Speedy. Speedy received it, sending the ball back, which was perfectly received by Silas. The ball flew towards Beast boy's direction as Silas leaned back slightly before lunging forward jumping high. He arched his back, swinging his hand forward, hitting the ball harshly, the impact echoing loudly.

"The poor ball," Raven says as she continued reading the book.

The ball headed towards Aqualad, who barely received the ball. Once he received it, he felt like his arms might rip off, the strong impact send Aqualad rolling backwards, his arms throbbing in pain.

Speedy and Bumblebee just stood there, shaken.

"Damn..." Aqualad muttered as he grabbed his head, which seemed to ring loudly.

"HEY! HEY! HEY!" Silas yelled as Aqualad stood up, smiling at him.

"How'd you do that?"

"Practi-"

"Anime," Raven snickered.

"I see you still watch haikyuu,"

"Well, yeah..."

-time skip-

The titans east had left after the match. "That was fun..." Silas said as they invited him inside.

"Soo... What brings you here..?" Cyborg asked as he plopped down on the sofa. Silas stopped on his tracks, remembering why he actually went there. He just shrugged then excused himself out. Everyone looked concerned, they looked at each other, but then decided to shrug it off.

Silas POV

What was I thinking, I thought to myself. Just tell them, I looked up at the night sky. The night breeze blowing at my face coldly.

Why me... Of all the fuckin' people out there... Why me...

I wanted to do so much more with my life... It isn't fair...

I looked down at my hands, a drop of liquid. Then another drop, and another, before I knew it, I was crying lightly. I cried a few more minutes, before sniffling, breathing deeply. I calmed my breathing a bit, before blinking slowly.

Is it the right desicion...? I can't let them suffer through this pain... But they have to know...

"Alright, spill," a voice said behind me. I slightly jumped in surprise. I turned to see Raven looking at me with a confused expression. I take it that she saw me crying.

Fuck..., I thought to myself, I'm pathetic...

She slowly walked up to me and sat beside me at the edge of the roof. "What happened...?" she asked.

I can feel her looking at me with concern, I looked at her with a sad frown on my face.

Then I smiled softly at Raven before closing my eyes, turning to the sky and opening them. I smiled slightly as a low chuckle escaped my dry throat.

" I've... I've always wondered..." I began. I could feel Raven shifting so she could litent to what I had to say.

"Ive always wondered, what was it was like... What it felt like... "

She stayed silent, allowing me to continue.

"What it felt like,... To be close to death"

I could see her look at me confused, slightly tilting her head. "Yeah...?"

"Well... Now I know..." I continued. She stiffened at the reply. Her eyes widened in realization of what I said.

"Youre sick..." she whispered sadly. I nodded, continuing to look at the city, I didn't want to see her pity me. I'm pathetic, we both knew that.

"I wanted to do so much more with my life..." I trailed off. I heard her shaking exhale as she listened to me, possibly for the last time. My heart ached in pain, I felt useless, "It isn't fucking... Fair." I can sense pity and sadness radiation off of her. I can sense her guilt of knowing there's nothing she can do.

I'm so... Fucking... Pathetic...

"Well... I lived a good life..." I said softly, closing my eyes as a tear slipped down. "I hope I'm the reason others did too..." I choked on my own words. I breathed in and out shakily, I felt her arms wrap around me. She rested her head on my shoulder whispering, "It'll be okay.."

She's right... I wanted to believe that beautiful lie... But I knew that it can't be farther from the truth.

She pulled away from me as tears flowed down her cheek and she smiled at me through the pain. I wiped her tears away with my thumb, smiling softly.

3rd person POV

That night, as everyone was asleep. Silas was in Raven' s room, unknown to him that she was also awake. He walked towards Raven, kneeling beside her, looking at her one last time.

His eyes softened. Raven knew what was going on, but she just closed her eyes, listening to every word he said.

"Im sorry..." he whispered sadly.

"Im sorry,.. For dragging you into this pain... I.. I-I should have... I S-should have never come here... Just to tell you this... I k-know t-that I'm a lost,... A lost cause... I know you know that too..."

He said these words through light sobbs, thinking she was asleep.

"Thanks for sticking by me... " he felt his heart ache in pain, "It'll be alright." He slowly stood up as his body turned into a silhouette, teleporting away.


Yeahhhh,... Sorry... I wrote this during an exam... Which I didn't study for... Now I hope I pass, which is weird, really...pls comment on what ya think... What I need to improve...?