Got some feed back about grammar and spelling errors, it's all good I just do this for fun the rats run in my head.

I ask you to look the other way it's all on me I have had a few peeps offer to look it over thanks to bettyz53 and bookaddict but I think I will just chug along. hope you find some fun running with my little friends in my head. I hope you keep reading and let the things go that bother you looking forward to hearing from you.


Chapter 10

I was a mess. The least little thing would wear me out never mind running I could barely walk one lap of the track, after that mile I was wiped and limped home. Velvet stuck to me like glue. Ra daddy is still a do-do head Valy and I am still mad at him.

Oh honey you should make up with him. I have let it go hon we may not see eye to eye but he has a hard job and sometimes even the best of us make mistakes.

Are you sure? She asked like I wasn't quite making sense to her limited knowledge of right and wrong. Mama told me I should say sorry for yelling at daddy but she didn't tell me he did right by you.

I rub her neck we were at the door to the dorms. Sometimes we hold on to a hurt too long and when you let it go both of you will feel better. You should never yell at your mother and father so she is right you owe your dad an apology.

She dips her head ok Ra I'll go now. Her hoofs drag as she heads to the field looking like she is being dragged by a rope one forced step at a time.

I shake my head and smile as I open the door and drag my ass to my room. I step into my room and look at my desk I should work on my courses but I just can't the bed is calling me. I have a bad feeling I will have to fight back to where I was before the mental kick in the head.

For the next week it's wash rinse and repeat I see a little improvement but it is so slight as to almost be missed. Terry and Charr dragged me to eat or I think I might have stayed in bed and slept. Only Terry's threats to tell Patty with the threat of having to go back to healers pried me from my blankets.

It was two weeks before Sansei let me back into the sally but only to watch.

"You will help with the classes pointing out wrong moves only Ra or I will ban you from my classes till that evil healer tells me you are 100%. Are we clear?"

I bow I had missed him and the blade work so much there was no way I would screw up. "Yes Sansei, watch and teach only."

I lasted 1 hour before he saw I was flagging and shipped me off making sure I was headed to my room to rest.

Val met me right outside of the sally doors. "Velvet and father are on their way here. She made father promises to apologize to you and me for letting you get hurt. She told him it was his job to keep our chosen safe in haven and he did a bad job."

I looked at him floored "are you kidding me?"

I see his eyes laughing "she's a force, father was at a loss, she nailed it he had no high ground. Every companion in haven heard her, I swear he shrunk in on himself while she waited for him to explain how he was in the right."

I look up and see my little friend with her father dragging his hoofs behind her a group of white watchers lurking just in sight of the whole train wreck about to happen.

"Daddy" she looks to him waiting.

"Ra I should have told you, I was wrong the first time my companion and I talked with you. You were right I had no right to speak to you in that manner. Velvet and Val have pointed out that you wellbeing should have been my top priority and we all failed you. You put your trust in us and we abused it. All I can do is promise it will never happen again we will learn from this and I hope you will someday be able to trust me again."

I stood and let him have his say, looking at Velvet she was beaming at her daddy he made everything better now, her friend got better and father was sorry for hurting her.

I spoke out loud in a soft voice keeping things between the 4 of us. "Rollin, we all had a hand in this even me. I could have stopped and would have if I knew this would be the end result. That is what pissed me off the most you all knew what could happen all you had to tell me is to go till it hurt too much. I meant what I told Velvet no one benefits from holding on to any hurts. I accept your apology Rollin, your companion however has made sure to go out of his way to keep snubbing me believing he is still in the right. I would ask you to intercede for me. I spoke my mind at the time and will not be apologizing for that. However it should have been in privet mode other should not have heard our disagreements and for that I will apologize for."

Val shook his head but before he could disagree with me I put my hand on his shoulder. In privet I thought at Rollin "you do however owe your son an apology. Holding him and blocking our bond so he was forced to stand and watch helpless was almost evil."

I never knew what was said between father and son but after a few minutes he lightly bumped his son with his neck almost like a hug.

"See daddy Ra was right everyone feels better when we don't stay mad."

He looks at me and the rules are back in affect he nods at me and herds Velvet back toward her dam. "By Ra mama told me we could go get one of my sweeties after our talk. Are you coming too daddy?" I just smile she includes me in all her conversations now. Rollin has given up stopping her. He would have better luck stopping the sun moving from east to west or stopping the world from turning.

Val asked if I would like to know what his father said I told him it was something between the two of them and only to tell me if he needed to talk it through. We were good, I was good with his father somethings should be kept privet. That was the problem with people they all thought they had a right to know everybody's business.

Like the gossips that they were everyone in the sally knew about our meeting and Charr was chopping at the bit to get out to me so she could get the scoop on what happened.

"Do you want to wait for Terry and Charr or head back to your room and grab a few minutes before your first gift class with Kyle?"

"Let's go Val I don't need to rehash that conversation, you know Charr will grill me till I give it up. Maybe if I delay the inviable Terry can rain her in."

I meet Kyle at the workroom the first time we worked on my gift of fetching. He stood outside the door looking down at his feet as if I was about to chew him out. "Morning Kyle" I tell him with a big smile as he draws his eyes from the floor to look me in the eyes.

"I want you to know we will be taking this slowly I'm not taking any chances of hurting you again, so soon after getting you back on your feet." He motions me into the room and I see the 4 objects on the table with two stools just like the first time. We worked for an hour and I found that it was so much easier than before.

Kyle looked at me "Too easy?"

"Ya it's hard to explain but the part of my mind that works this gift seem to have gotten bigger."

He nods "either your gift would have burned out or stretched. This means in a few weeks we could try that same test and you could lift more for longer. I would not do that on purposes but because of your young age and early gift opening I'm not surprised."

"Has this happened to any other heralds?"

He shakes his head "I only found one case and had to look almost 200 years back, his gifts matched yours closely and gateing ripped his gift open, a bit more harshly than yours. His gifts were passive not opening like yours."

I looked at him "what happened to him?"

He gives me a sad smile, "he became the greatest Herald Mage in our history."

Kyle walked me out locking the door it was not a good idea to leave a room with that much power open to the public. "Good work Ra I'll see you tomorrow at the same time." The smile he gives me reaches to his eyes this time. The hour we spent went a long way to loosening him back up too before my collapse.

I hear Val in my head he was a passive rider during the lesson. Most would not have been able to breach the shields on the work room but after the incident as Val calls it our bond is extra tight. The only thing Val considers a plus from that day, we can't shield from each other.

"That went better than I thought it would. You don't seem to have any discomfort from using your gift."

In my mind I can tell he is by the lake soaking up some sun. "Thanks love I feel fine and Kyle seems to have gotten the stick out of his ass about me getting hurt. I think he finally believes me when I say I forgive him.

I finally let Winter off the hook you were right Rollin had gaged all of us to keep us from stopping you he also had words with father about that."

"Well enjoy the sun you lazy boy, I hear I get to put you through your passes soon and your life of idleness is almost at an end." A servant passes me as I have a smile on my face knowing I am having a conversation with my other half.

I hear his laughter as I walk into my room to work on my book work. I have no desire to slip from the top of my classes and next week I get to go back.