Heyyyyy I hope the previous chapter wasn't too explicit *_* everything seems dark for now and mysterious but soon and slowly everything will add up and please leave a review and pardon me if there are any errors for English is my 2nd language :O

Chapter 2 Regrets & Memories

'I'm sorry….I'm so sorry, that's not what I wanted to happen. THIS wasn't how things were supposed to turn out' noctis said with tears overflowing as he kissed me, I could taste the regret, the angst, the inner child in him that was once happy and hopeful. He slowly backed away from me and put on his black t shirt and trousers. I for some reason started crying, he looked at me when he heard and looked really confused on how to act from here, he thought he was the reason for these tears, and he was partly right, but I cried my heart out because ill never be enough for him, ill never even be a replacement or anything to fill his, now, empty heart. He approached me and as soon as he touched my skin I fell into his arms and wrapped my arms around his neck and cried even harder.

'I'm really sorry, I went too far. You don't deserve this, you've only been kind to me and all I did was take advantage of it, hate me if you want and ill just walk out and you'll never see me again but please…. please don't cry'. His voice too close to my ears, his words felt true, but I didn't want him to leave how can I explain to him that I did want him, and that even for awhile I felt happy that he saw me a woman for once. How can I tell him that I have always dreamt of this, given it would be in a different light of events, but somehow this was still what I wanted. He pushed me away and put on his black boots and was heading towards the door, he didn't look back as he said "Goodbye, yuuki. Thank you for everything.' I couldn't believe it, was he really walking out of my life, was he really going to leave? I didn't find any words but before he turns the door handle I found my body running towards him like he was a drug that I was too hooked onto to let go, 'PLEASE, stay with me. I know im not perfect, im not enough but PLEASE I don't mind the person who you are now, I can't force the old noctis out of you, but I cant blame you it was partly my fault this all happened.' Words escaped me and I wonder if he even understood what I was saying as I cried and held him back. He turned towards me now, with his head hung low and his voice shaky as he said: ' Why? What do you see in me? Why are you so hung up on me? Why cant you leave like everyone else? " he raised his voice as he added:' I ONLY USED YOU! WHY CANT YOU GET THAT?! STOP LOWERING YOUR WORTH THAT'S WHY 'ELI' LEFT YOU!' On hearing those words, my jaw was hanging open, my eyes staring in denial to what was coming out from his mouth. I felt like I was choking, I felt like I couldn't breathe, was that how he saw me, truly? I thought that maybe at least he had grown fond of him but I guess I was broken.

Noctis pov.

I had to her that she didn't mean to me as much as she thought she did, that I was that horrible of a person, that this is really who I am. I didn't know what to say now should I just walk out? For some reason I just couldn't move, probably my guilt paralyzed me down for 'Eli' was to her what 'luna' was to me. We both had a lot more in common than anyone else, yet I was too brutal, at least not after making out with her. 'get…out…GET THE FUCK OUT! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU ANYMORE AND I DON'T GIVE A FUCK ON WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU …. SO JUST GET OUT' she said with all the energy in her body that was left, all the fight that she had in her was gone, as she fell to the floor, and tears flowed non stop. I couldn't clearly say anything so I walked away and shut her door behind me. I stood there in front of her door, as I heard her cries even more. Why did I feel bad? I said what I thought, I was messed up, rather I was envious of her. She seemed like she had all the love in the world in her no matter how much pain she's been through, while I was knocked out. It started raining all of the sudden and I made my way to my car, perhaps it's time to go back to my life at the palace. I stood in front of my car and looked above at her building, this place was where 'we' all felt like family, this was the beginning….