Summary: Hakkai's past has always bothered him. His dreams always take him back to that night when he lost what was most important to him. But now he has his friends and a mission. But the Merciful Goddess won't let him forget his past, especially when she throws in a young half demon godling who has just as much to do with Hakkai's past as Hakkai has to do with her future. Rated T Hakkai/OC

Kyandi: Hi everyone, I'm Kyandi-sama!

Yuai: And I'm her OC, Yukinemhimai Choi.

Kyandi: You have a really hard name to pronounce.

Yuai: You made it up.

Kyandi: I know. Everyone just call her Yuai. Believe me its way easier. I made up the name and I can't even say it without having to pause and sound it out.

Yuai: Just sad.

Kyandi: I know right. Anyway this is my first Saiyuki fan fic but I'm really well known in Prince of Tennis. So everyone please enjoy and review!

Yuai: Kyandi-sama does not own Saiyuki.

Chapter 1 Mixed Feelings

If there was one thing Sanzo hated the most it was having to stay in a temple. He preferred sleeping outside in the Jeep rather then staying in a temple, being fawned over by monks. Hakkai didn't mind it. He was just glad not to be sleeping out in the open in case it rained.

Gojyo's only complaint was that he couldn't smoke. That and the only woman near them was a holy priestess sworn to maidenhood. As for Goku…as long as he food he didn't care one way or the other. So all in all the mood was split in half between Sanzo's and Gojyo's bad moods and Hakkai and Goku's good moods. Then again Sanzo always seemed to be in a generally bad mood for one reason or another.

"Man I need a smoke!" Gojyo complained, dropping his chin into one hand. He was sitting in a window seat leaning back against the window sill. His foot, propped up on the opposite knee, was bouncing rapidly in an annoying fashion that was slowly working on Sanzo's nerves.

"They're giving us a place to stay and food to eat when it raining. You can survive one night." Hakkai told him pleasantly from where he sat at the table with Sanzo, a book in his hand, but with the rain hitting the window he wasn't really focused on the book.

"They can cook too! It tasted great!" Goku exclaimed happily from his bed. Sanzo remained quiet. He wouldn't admit it but without a cigarette his nerves were even more thin then usual. It didn't help that Gojyo kept bouncing that cursed leg of his.

He was about to snap and throw something, anything at Gojyo when there was a knock on the door. All four males turned as the door opened to reveal one of the younger monks. "The priestess would like to see all of you. She said it was important." he told the four, bowing respectfully to them.

Hakkai shared a look with Sanzo, before the two got to their feet. Goku gave Gojyo a confused look as the two followed, which the red head shared. The four were given no farther explanation as they were lead to the alter room of the temple where the young monk bowed them into the room.

Once inside the door closed behind them. Gojyo and Goku looked back at the door before looking at Hakkai who was taking in the whole room. Sanzo on the other hand was focused on the alter at the head of the room.

Knelling at the alter as if praying was the cloaked form of the priestess. "Priest Sanzo I have received word from the Merciful Goddess for you." the woman said in a low voice without turning to look at the four men.

"The Merciful Goddess?" Sanzo asked shocked by the sudden message from the goddess. "Yes. She spoke to me of a future ally of your's. One you will need to complete your mission with you and your companions all in one piece." the priestess remarked.

Sanzo glanced back at his friends. The look said it all. Sanzo was not thrilled at the thought of having yet another companion to annoy him. "Another companion?" Sanzo asked managing to keep the distaste out of his voice. "Yes and no." came the soft answer making all four males turn to look at the woman's cloaked back.

"What do you mean, Priestess?" Hakkai asked. "This companion will go as quickly as they come and will come and go as they see fit." the priestess said though it only seemed to confuse the males even more. "Who is this person that the goddess spoke of then?" Sanzo asked interested to find out who the goddess saw fit to add to their group.

In Sanzo's opinion he didn't need another companion but he couldn't question a god. Especially not the Merciful Goddess. He had a feeling that even if he did, she would still do as she pleased. Gods could be that way.

"This person will find you, not you finding them. When the time is right your paths will cross and you will find yourself before them." the priestess said, resettling the dark cloth around her as she spoke the words. "How will we know this person?" Hakkai asked. Sanzo couldn't help feeling like the priestess was beating around the bush.

"This person bares the scars of a bloody, hard past, just as you four young men, but upon the snowy skin of a small back and strong shoulders. Despite this hard past this person smiles brightly for sake of those around them." the priestess said.

Sanzo raised an eyebrow at Hakkai who shrugged. What were they suppose to do? Check the backs of everyone they crossed paths with? "But you will know this person upon first meeting of the eyes. The child bear the mark of a half breed child of a god and….a demon." the priestess added.

"A god and demon!?" Gojyo asked shocked. He was well aware of the taboo that was the children of humans and demons. Each was marked with red hair and eyes. But a demon and god?

"Yes. A child of god and demon. This child bears the silvery white eyes, the icy eyes, of a child of both races. Eyes the color of gleaming ice that see straight to a person's soul." came the low reply from the woman.

Sanzo looked at his friends. "Be careful Priest Sanzo. Do not over look this message. This child you're destined to meet plays an important role in the past as well as the future of your party. Though they, their self, do not know it yet, you will need what this child can provide. Unless you wish to lose your companions along the way as well as possibly fail at your mission. Do not be quick to judge." the priestess warned him.

With that the four men were dismissed to return to their room. When the door closed behind their departing forms the cloaked figure turned pulling the hood back to let wavy black hair fall out and down her back. A playful grin twisted the pink lips up. Staring from under the hood was not the priestess but the Merciful Goddess herself.

The god got to her feet with a chuckle to herself. "Hopefully he got it. Then again he'll probably just be his usual stubborn self." she remarked to herself, one hand going to her hip as she stared at the door the four men had vanished through.

"This is going to become more interesting. I can't wait to see the looks on their faces when they meet their new playmate." she added to herself with another chuckle. Now just to set things on track.

END

Kyandi: It's short for a first chapter I know and I apologize, but I'll have the next chapter up really soon.

Yuai: Like within the next twelve hours soon.

Kyandi: Yep, but first I have to sleep. So everyone enjoy and review!

Yuai: We'll be back soon.

Kyandi: Bye bye!