One minute later

Georgia
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"I wish we could go back to the start." I took a deep breath. Everything played before my eyes. I'd had everything planned out, how Dave would interrupt the wedding and we'd all live happily ever after. I didn't expect the confrontation in a shit hospital room with about a million different tubes in my arms and two children, one of which we hadn't even decided a name for. I had wanted it to be big and dramatic, he'd declare his love for me and say he regretted everything he'd ever done to hurt me, he'd fall on his knees and beg me to take him back, he'd apologise profusely. I'd say that I wanted everything to start again and that we could make a fresh start with two babies and be a happily married couple again, I'd be best friends with Jools and it would be all sunshine and roses. Now I had to decide what I really wanted to say, what I wanted the outcome of our conversation to be. I had to decide whether to break Dave and watch him slowly kill himself or whether to learn to love the only person I've ever properly loved again.

Dave had burst into tears. It killed me on the inside to watch the father of my beautiful children, my husband, my everything look so broken. I took a deep breath. "So do I." Dave looked up at me underneath his stunning eyelashes, tear tracks on his cheeks, shrunken face, so shrunken you could almost see his skull, and in that moment I realised that it was him, it had to be him. I wasn't sure if it was the sunlight bouncing off his green eyes, the way his haired sat as if he'd been raking his fingers for hours, but there was something there. "Come here...?" I demanded, although my tone made it sound like more of a question. I suddenly realised I was acting like Libby, it was like she'd taken over my body. I was half expecting Pantilitzer doll to appear by magic. "I can has cuddles?" I asked childishly. Dave smiled and it was suddenly like none of this had happened. He'd never cheated on me, I hadn't tried to kill myself or fallen off a ladder, he hadn't tried to throw himself off a building. It was like we were eighteen again and I was scared of a storm. He leant over and placed his strong, muscular arms around my shoulders and I buried my face in his hair and whispered, "I still love you... I never stopped. And I never will."


A.N. Hello! I'm not dead guys, I'm so sorry that this has taken me five months to upload... I basically have no excuse apart from the fact that I am a high school student.

And even that's not really an excuse XP

I'm planning to start updating this again every weekend (apart from this weekend... please don't kill me I have a concert =P) because that was a horrendously long hiatus and I promise that that will NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN (or I'll try not to let it happen again).

Alllllllllllllllllllllllllllllso, I didn't know if you'd notice but yes, my writing style has changed an extraordinary amount (I've been taking 'creative writing' classes =P)

I LOVE YOU GUYS THANK YOU FOR STICKING WITH ME...

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p.s. THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL MY BEAUTIFUL FOLLOWERS AND FAVOURITE-RS YOU INSPIRE ME TO KEEP SHARING MY IMAGINATION WITH YOU ALL xxxxxxxxxxxx

p.p.s. my latest obsessions are Coldplay (which you all knew), Taylor Swift, Muse, danisnotonfire and AmazingPhil (you should check out those last two YouTubers if you've never heard of them, I don't think my life will ever be the same again)

p.p.p.s. (I have a lot to share with you) song recommendation: Running Through Rivers by Carrie Hope Fletcher :)

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