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~Love Toxic


Chapter 1: Cyn

*June 1st 2012*

Within the past five months, I learned more about myself then I had in my entire existence. Let me explain.

First of all, I am NOT content with loneliness. I thought I was until he decided we were no longer done. Second that you cannot try to change, hide, or fix yourself for anyone no matter who they are. You have to stand your ground because you cannot give in. Third destiny is a bunch of bullshit; it's your LIFE your CHOICE no one else's and that nothing is what it seems, nor will it ever be, and never has been.

Five months before

*February 1st 2012*

Sleep, my worst enemy. I needed it to survive and I loved it, but it didn't love me. It would take hours to embrace me and when it did, it never stayed long. Half the time I would wake up groggy and sweating from a nightmare or I just wouldn't stay asleep. Tonight the ghosts of my past decided to visit as I relived the fire and the reason that forced the pack to move from their beloved home in Vermont.

Third person POV

"Vivian, who is still in there," Esme asked franticly looking at their home burning with wide eyes.

"Baby Maria, Jennifer, Aunt Alexis and Uncle David, and Cyn," Vivian let the list of people's names out in a choking voice "Bucky, Gabriel, and daddy went to get them and any others."

"What, no he cant!" Esme shouted running toward the blaze.

"Stop! He has an obligation as alpha to protect the pack." Vivian told her mother and female alpha as she yanked her back.

"Cyn!" Gabriel shouted as she was the only one they knew was alive still.

"Over here! The structure is collapsing! I can' t cross the fire with Maria!" Cyn shouted from somewhere in the flames.

"Hang on we are on are way to you!" Abraham assured her. He was the leader of the pack and Vivian's father as well as Cyn's uncle. He

Maneuvered over the wall of fire she was referring to in order to reach his 16-year-old niece. He kissed her forehead as he removed Maria from her hands passing her over the fire to Bucky. Then Cyn jumped over and bumped into Gabriel who steadied her as she stumbled to regain balance.

"Make sure Cyn gets out of the fire no matter how much she protests." Abraham told Gabriel.

"Of course." Gabriel responded putting an arm around her as he began to lead her out.

"Wait, your not coming to?" she asked turning back to her uncle. The man that had helped her learn to walk and had been with her, her father (David), and Vivian on her and Viv's first run in their true forms. She couldn't help but think that if he stayed he would never come out.

"I'm going to look for the others. Go on I will be fine. I promise." He told her.

Gabriel began towing her out of the building, avoiding all of her fighting and protest as he went she may have been tiny but she was definitely stout.

Once they caught up with Bucky Gabriel looked back to see the building shaking ever so slightly only a loup garoux's keen eyes would see it. Before he turned back around Cyn ran toward the building.

"No! Cyn its going to collapse!" he exclaimed as he yanked her back slinging her to the ground underneath him to shield her from the blast of debris.

Now

The last thing I remembered from that night was Gabriel's piercing raspy voice telling me to sit still so he could make sure Bucky and Maria were okay. Then he begged me as I began to shift. As he looked down at me, I blacked out.

Due to the events of that night, I not only lost my parents and my uncle but I lost my home, the only one I had ever known. The pack had lived there for centuries. We had to move to Maryland, West Virginia. Where Esme's brother Rudy lived. Vivian, Esme, and I now lived with him. In a house that would never be home. All because a stupid act of desire and greed. Axel thirsted for the hunt so that is just what he did; he hunted on his own and broke our most precious law. In addition, he was arrested for a girl's murder and then in attempt to clear his name the five killed another. I would never forgive the five for what they did, but I could forget and that is just what I do everyday.

I owe Gabriel my life. I'm in his debt and I hate it. I would do anything he asked or told me to do; I owed him my existence. It is a debt that will never be repaid.

In addition, Vivian my only true cousin she had never healed from the fire just like me. We no longer felt apart of the pack. We not only lost our home in the fire but our family; our pack had been taken from us. Stripped away and now unreachable. She was all I had and I would protect her with my life.

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading so sick and tired of all the neeeedless beating.

I moaned at the sound of my alarm clock signaling that it was time to get up on this fine Wednesday and get ready for school. I reached over and dismissed the alarm from my phone. I didn't want to leave the warmth of my blanket or the comfort of my bed but I had to get dressed, wake up Viv and get my coffee. Dear moon did I need my coffee.

I walked to my closet and began deciding what on earth I was going to wear. I quickly slipped on this( cgi/set?id=70426945) before walking to my vanity. I looked myself over with lazy eyes. My thin and choppy midnight black hair fell just below my shoulders. I ran a brush through the straight and feathery strands. My bangs laid diagonally over one of my icy eyes. As I sat down the brush, I applied a little eyeliner and mascara to make my eyes stand out a little more. Afterwards I looked my self over, I was short really short we are talking 5'3 short; yeah I know how is a loup garoux that short. I had long legs though and a curvy form with a thin structure but that didn't mean I wasn't strong or useful. I had been one of fastest in the pack. I was a little evasive midget as many liked to say.

I laughed at the thought as I walked out my door to Viv's room that was a little further down the hall I skipped knocking knowing she was fast asleep. I stalked in and first flipped on the light switch and opened the curtains.

"Vivie darling its 6:15," a moan erupted from a pile of blankets "come on get your lazy ass up. It's going too take you fifteen minutes to shower, ten to get dressed, ten to drag yourself downstairs twenty to eat and say goodbye, five more to get your stuff together we should be walking to school by 7:30 arrive at 7:45 gives you ten minutes to get into your locker and five to get to first period." I said as I walked around the room picking up dirty clothes. Jeez, Vivian ever heard of cleaning up.

"What the hell? You are to smart for your own good." she mumbled rolling out of bed and slumping to the bathroom.

"That's my girl!" I teased as I glided down the stairs. I sprinted into the kitchen to be greeted by a cup of coffee by uncle Rudy. "Thank you." I said as I began to fix it just the way I liked it.

"Your welcome. How did you sleep?" He questioned eyeing the dark circles under Cyn's eyes worriedly. She's never been the same.

"Just freaking peachy." I mumbled as we walked into the dining room to see Esme gripping her head.

"Great moon what happened to you?" Rudy asked her. He was evidently referring to the black eye and scraped arms she was fashioning.

"Got in a fight with that whore," she sneered shielding her eyes from all light.

"Really Esme? You aren't only severely hung over but you also got in a fight with Astrid AGAIN." Rudy spoke trying to keep his tone steady as he shook his head at his little sister.

I didn't recognize Aunt Esme. The same aunt who once sung Vivian and me to sleep every night, but that was before the fire, before she lost her husband and sister, my mother.

"What? She deserved it!" Esme said defensively.

"Yeah because kissing a guy that isn't yours is such a good reason. Gabriel isn't property and he sure as hell isn't worth it." I commented sarcastically. Hey just because I owe him my existence doesn't mean I have to like him.

"You are so not a morning person," I rolled my eyes but didn't disagree. "And excuse me if I think he deserves better then that tramp." She said with venom dripping from her words.

"You should put ice on that." I told her as Vivian walked in. I stroked my coffee lovingly as checked the clock. "Right on time." I told her as she grabbed a cup of coffee and began pouring pounds of sugar in to it.

"What does Tooly say about you fighting at work?" Vivian asked obviously not happy with her mother. Esme simply snorted ignoring the question as she walked to kitchen, probably to get an ice pack.

"Well girls I have to leave for work. Viv honey go easy on your mom." he begged her kissing both of our foreheads before leaving.

"Can we leave a little early I don't want deal with her." Vivian whispered in an almost an inaudible voice.

"Okay, just let me grab my bag and I will meet you at the door in five." I said as I grabbed a to go mug and filled it to the brim with more coffee. I left it on the table by the front door as I ran upstairs. I grabbed my black messenger that was adorned with numerous buttons with a variety of quotes on them and slung it over my shoulder. I went back down the stairs to see Viv tapping her foot impatiently.

"Someone's a little anxious." I joked as I took a sip of my coffee.

"Get your ass out that door!" Vivian demanded.

"Yes sir." I said with a mock solute.

"I'm going to kill you, little midget." she said running after me. I laughed as I easily out ran her without even spilling my coffee.

"Aw I love you to!" I squealed.

"Oh you li-" I cut her off skidding to a halt and sticking my arm out in front of her to keep her from running into the five. "What the hell?" She asked annoyed.

"Aw baby why so snappy?" Rafe asked stroking her face. That led to her pushing him away and him moving forward again.

"I don't think so." I murmured handing my coffee to Vivian. I went down, sticking my leg out and spun knocking Rafe right off his feet. Which lead to the five laughing and him scowling.

"Oh Rafe you let Cyn beat you, again!" Ulf laughed gripping his stomach.

"Oh fuck off Ulf or I'll do the same to you." I said retrieving my coffee and taking a hearty sip of it.

"Saw your mother go into Tooley's bar with Gabriel last night," Finn said. "She was all over him." His lips sketched a spiteful thin leer, and his eyes narrowed expectantly. Vivian bristled, but she wasn't going to say anything. "Yeah, Astrid wasn't far behind," said Rafe. "And she looked pissed." He laughed. "Hey, leave my mom out of it," Ulf piped up.

"Ulf sweetie your mom kind of puts herself into it, I mean no offence but honestly there I more wolves in the forest Astrid and dear aunt Esme simply both chose the biggest ass they could find." I said putting an arm around him. What, I seriously don't have to like him. "Other than Rafe of course." I added with a wink.

"You know what Cyn?" Rafe asked as he glared down at me.

"What Rafey?" I asked mockingly.

"You are getting on my last nerve!" He spoke with clenched teeth.

"Oh, am I? Well Vivian and me here have to get to school, but thanks for letting me know."

"You know that place you are supposed to go to learn." Vivian said with a little bite in her voice.

"But wait Viv." He commented taking the parcel he carried out from beneath his arm, and I heard Ulf giggle. Rafe pulled at the knotted string to loosen it. His eyes were more red than brown when he glanced up at her, a wicked grin playing about his lips, and I knew he was up to no good once again. "Vivian, I'd like to give you my heart," Rafe said, suddenly serious, then immediately grinning again. "But since that might be inconvenient, I've brought you someone else's." The newspaper unrolled, and he slapped a brown slimy gob down on the sidewalk.

"Rafe!" She looked around wildly, hoping no neighbors were in sight. "What the hell are you up to?" The Five were helpless with laughter. Vivian grabbed the newspaper from Rafe's hand and scooped up the mess. "Gave you my heart ..." he gasped, and bent over laughing again. Where could they put this? Where was the body? She started to rewrap the disgusting trophy.

Then, "Rafe, you jerk," she cried. "This is a sheep's heart." More howls of laughter exploded from the Five. I didn't know whether to be angry or relieved. "You were over at Uncle Rudy's store, weren't you?" Rudy was a meat cutter at Safeway. When no one answered her, Viv growled and flung the whole package in Rafe's face. That set the others off even worse and this time I began to laugh to. Both me and Ulf had tears in our eyes ,it was just to good.

"Oh Vivie and I would love to stay here and mock Rafe some more, however we are behind schedule so come on." I said grabbing the taller girl and dragging her along with me. "Later boys I will never miss you, except you Willem I still love you!" I shouted over my shoulder. What can I say Willem was always my favorite twin.

"I will see you at lunch!" Vivian hollered as she headed in the opposite direction to her locker. Since I took advanced classes the only time actually saw Viv was lunch, 4th period study hall, 5th period History, and 7th period gym. She only takes advanced history.

I walked to my locker grabbed my Trig book and proceeded to walk to trig for my first period of hell.

Come lunchtime I was tired and craving chocolate lots of chocolate. I thanked god for the vending machines right next to my locker I threw al my stuff in except my writing book and proceeded to purchase a caramel filled chocolate bar and a Dr. Pepper.

I took a quick swig of the cool liquid before noticing that Vivian hadn't met me by the vending machines yet. Usually we would meet here and then head to our currently empty study hall where would eat our lunch and then sit there with me writing and her drawing until 5th period started since 4th period was our actual study hall. But as I said there was no Viv any where in sight. I pulled out my black and blue Samsung Strive to send her a text.

Where are at Vivie I'm waiting for you by the V.M. ~Cyn

Sorry Cyn I'm busy go ahead to study hall I will be a little late though. Cover for me? ~Viv

Hm that's odd. Okay but you have some legit explaining to do later ditcher :P ~Cyn

Will do love ya see you later! ~Viv

I pondered where the hell she was the rest of lunch period and sure enough come 4th Vivian was late but I told the study hall teacher she was busy helping Miss Owen organize her bookshelf. I know lame, but hey she believed it.

About 15 minutes into 4th period Vivian walked in and took her seat beside me. I quickly wrote a note down on a piece of paper seeing the smile and slightly glazed over look on her face I wrote 'what did you do get high?' and passed it to her. She unfolded it and nodded her no before handing it back with no response. Aw groaned slightly looking forward to a high Viv even though I'm against drug use.

The rest of the school day went by without a problem and I couldn't tell you what happened during gym because I was totally zoned out. I know I'm a loupe garoux and all but gym is so freaking boring! When me and Viv arrived home Gabriel was just stepping out the front door.